Back to the back

No injury pain this morning, but lots of sensation — less in lumbar and more in thoracic, sternum and psoas. Which is exactly what I was aiming for, though always funny to actually FEEL it — I’d imagined this is what I wanted, but now that I feel it, I am surprised — it being a new sensation and all.

My abandon in the kapo entry and in the pose: thought about it a bit this morning. I was eager, after 8 months of practicing on my own, to have an assist. Threw myself into it. Isn’t there something humorous about this? Poor VBG looked a little stunned, both at my quick, fervent request (“Can I have an adjustment in kapotasana?”) during “play time” when people usually do fun things like handstands and pincha mayurasana, and at my immediate swan dive (backwards though it might have been) into the pose.

So why was that so easy (the abandon)? Duh, because my teacher was there. Because I had the opportunity and wanted to grab it.

There’s something profound in all of this, in relation to the student/teacher relationship, but I’m disinclined — at least at this point — to analyze it too closely.

Definitely, though, this was the biggest “gap” I’ve ever experienced between my mind when I practice by myself and my mind when I practice with a teacher. I built what I did by myself over the past number of months, but I couldn’t deploy it fully until I was under the watchful eye of VBG.


5 Responses

  1. Hi Karen
    Sorry to blab so much in your blog. Maybe I should restrict myself to a comment every other day. – Anyhow I wanted to add that this entry is inspiring, with respect to one’s relationship to a teacher.

  2. agreed, that…if it were my experience, i’d break down the teacher/student thing in crazy detail, but it’s nice to see it stated here without analysis…

    congrats on the kapo, too!

    (but 106 degrees, are y’all NUTS? it’s dry heat, right?)

    (i get dizzy spells if i practice at 90)

  3. Arturo, don’t ration your comments. It’s always nice to hear from you. 🙂

    And Patrick, yes, it is a dry heat. Plus, we’re all used to it. 106 here is like 80 with humidity.

  4. I think we all work through dizzy spells here in the desert, Patrick. Just part of the practice. Never really thought of it before, because I figured all practitioners did. That’s probably not true in the colder climes, though.

  5. that’s super fun, if you all at some point practice dizzy. Must lead to a really stout Utthita Hasta, eh? 😀

    I find that when I move from winter practice into the warmer summer practices, the 70s are quite welcome, but it takes me a while of dizzy adjustment to get used to the 80s and 90s, and that kinda heat almost always comes with high humidity over here in the eastern plains.

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